I feel down recently.
I don't know where to turn to or whom should i share this with, except on this blog
Have you once being dumped, you surely won't forget how it feels like.
I did, long time ago, few years have passed and it never goes.
I amazed how we can stay as a friends despite what was happened in between.
I can be his friend, it's true and i never lie about that. It's hard to forget what has been done, but i went through with no regret.
Just that.
Just.
That.
When he turns to me when he needs someone to talk with, i expect he would do the same when i need it too.
I don't have any feelings towards him, except as a friend. I remembered how we were both close together back then. I know exactly where should i stand.
Just that.
When he turns to me with all his texts, mails, expressing how life being done to him, i replied immediately, and when it comes to my turn, i received nothing, and he never cares.
It is a major disappointment of all ! It is even more hurt than being dumped !
I try to treat him nicely all the time, the way i think .. he is my friend and once being the closed one. That's it, and nothing beyond that ! I'm just trying to be nice and thrown away the hatred, i tell you it is not easy, at all !
I thought we are friends ? What are friends for ?
For how many times have i turns to you ? Once in a blue moon ?
And i guess you never understood
And now i understand not everyone deserves a second chance, not even for being a friends, it's all thanks to you.
Lesson learnt.